Acknowledgement for Spencer CLARK

hi son was looking at all messages and rereading them i must have had a senior moment as i put twelve years and its 13 on august 4 i never forget that day or your birthday 21st may so many changes sometimes its hard to keep up with everything .lost alison as well so has been hard over last few years as we talked about you and i heard most days so havent got that now only see ruaraidh once a week if not busy but always working and weekends i usualy have daisy .doesnt make up for you not being here if only we knew what future holds would we do things differently as cant change things but wish you were still here as miss you everyday and that never changes love you always mam

hi son may coming up soon and another year with out you i miss you everyday say it gets easier but it really doesnt i often wonder what you would have done if still with us ruaraidh has the two children you would love them dallas is quiet and daisy very grown up for nearly 7 dallas starts school in september and daisy moves across to what used to be grass royal so following in dads footsteps getting older myself but miss and love you that will never change

hi son missed you a lot lately have daisy this week its nice but tiring getting old i think nearly 13 years since lost you but think of you every day i see ruaraidh at week ends when he brings daisy and dallas and he rings wed .wish you could be here .paul is semi retired works weekends for a few hours .know your never forgotten and loved and missed every day love you mamxx

hi its your birthday today been to crem with flowers and card i miss you everyday never goes away wishing i could see you and talk to you and sit in garden in evening as you liked to sit out there and chat and laugh miss that as your laugh made me smile ruaraidh comes at weekends with daisy and dallas you would love them so much you have missed and so many changes . daisy will be 6 in august and dallas 3 daisy knows about you and we talk about you as she stays at weekends but gave me a reason to carry on after lost you i miss you everyday and love you always mam.xx

Your birthday coming up but I miss you everyday so not just birthdays or special days be 12 years in August so many changes in that time but never stop loving you or missing you and just wish you were still here and always wonder what life would be like if you were still here would you have travelled or have met someone and married but will never know and just have to carry on but wish it had been different love you lots Mam