The obituary notice of Daniel Edward Ronald BIRDSEY

The devastation of losing you will never leave me.Now I’ll be a widow at the age of 56.Every day I think now who’s next.Who else is going to be taken from me 🥹

I’m trying to get daddy into a hospice Daniel before the hospital send him home again.Since he came home Wednesday he’s now lost all the ability to walk.He actually can’t even stand he’ll fall straight to the floor.So he’s been going to the toilet in a jug in the bedroom.I couldn’t even give him his pain tablets because I gave him 2 glasses of water and he dropped them on the bed.So he’s also lost the ability to grip anything at all.I’m trying to hold it for him but he’s getting frustrated thinking he can do it himself.I don’t know sometimes what he’s talking about.He’ll ask the same questions over and over again.He asked me yesterday to phone the cat.🥹He hasn’t eaten for weeks I haven’t even been able to get him to drink water.He has no life at all now.There’s absolutely nothing he can do for himself.It was our 30 year wedding anniversary yesterday and I don’t know if that was his last day being in this house.I never ever thought I’d say I don’t want him home but that’s the way I feel.It’s impossible for him to be here.I really should be going to see him tomorrow but I’m dreading it.I know he’s going to be worse than yesterday and I just can’t bear to see it 🥹

30 years married to daddy today Daniel.And 41 years together 🥹

Daddy’s home again Daniel.After they told him he could go he fell backwards and banged the back of his head.But again they still sent him home.I tried to get him up the stairs to the toilet but he couldn’t do it.So he’s using a bucket downstairs.Don’t know how I’m going to get him up to bed tonight 🥹

Went to pick daddy up from hospital today Daniel.But he actually wasn’t allowed out,he got it wrong because he’s still very confused.He’s gone to Morriston ward L. Don’t know what they do there until I ask tomorrow.He’s absolutely filthy so I’m going to make sure I shower him tomorrow while I’m there.He can’t hold anything now which wasn’t happening in the house so that’s another thing that’s bad.He said he’s tipped 6 cups of tea over him because he can’t grip the cup 🥹

Daddy’s still in A and E Daniel.He’s been there 27 hours.I’ve got this awful feeling that if his x rays are okay the doctor will send him back home in the morning.He only agreed for me to ring an ambulance because that’s the only way ward 12 would take him back in.So he’s going to be really upset if he comes back home and all this was for absolutely nothing.And I will be fuming ❤️